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[invoking]

❝ At the tone, please record your message. ❞
[ beep! ]
【 call • text • voice mail 】

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[Video message roughly 48 hours after port out]

[wisecracked]

[The video starts off with Kenzi fussing over the placement of the comm and then smoothing down her jacket and hair. She glances about as if to make sure no one's around then turns back to the camera to speak.]

Hey, Gil. If you're getting this it means I've been ported out and it wasn't just a freak twenty-four hour thing. But, um...

[She pauses, pressing her lips together as if thinking of what to say next.] Dude, I'm really not good at this stuff. [The video turns off only to turn back on, it can be assumed it's a few hours later.]

Right. Uh, well... If I don't come back I just wanted you to know no matter what you are your own person. And that person is a great person. At least I think so and that's all that matters. [She gives a little laugh and shifts.]

Also, I love you. [A little pause to give him a moment to freak out, she can't seem to help but grin.] I mean that as in you were like family to me. So don't freak out too much.

I know, it's all sappy but it's true. You meant a lot to me and I can never thank you enough for being there and just being you.

[She leans forward to the end the video, pausing for a moment to make sure she said everything she wanted to say before shutting off the feed.]

[invoking]

[ While most people might replay the message over and over to ensure they've swallowed every word, Gil lets the video play one round and when it's done, he puts it aside the table adjacent to the bed and sits there with his hands in his lap and eyes staring straight ahead at the window.

The blush that had initially crept its way into his cheeks is long gone now knowing Kenzi was only teasing him about the "love" part of her message.

He keeps thinking about the parts she called him a "great person" and he tells himself it's not true and she's only being kind. She's always been to him, despite knowing how useless and pathetic he really is. She may have teased him, too, but she's always cared for him in ways he still doesn't completely understand.

This goodbye cements the fact she no longer is in this world and hopefully has been rightfully returned to hers. It's selfish to miss her as home is where she belongs, but he does. His chest feels strange -- like someone's split it open and carved it hollow though there's an underlying mixture of emotions.

But what a terribly selfish feeling. ]